It's all a matter of perspective

Day 112 - On a roll, originally uploaded by shobster.

W00t, i really was on a roll today. I was a busy body during the day, going back and forth between the lab and my office a bunch of times. I got plenty of things done, even though pretty much nothing worked. Yeah, bummer but at least i tried. Tomorrow's another day.

And then i went swimming again - twice this week already, and two days in a row!! I'm so proud of myself. What made me even happier is that i did really good at the pool. I cut my previous time by a full 2 minutes, and i wasn't even the slightest bit winded. I was ON A ROLL. I think my body finally remembered how it's supposed to be done. :-) The weight was the same as yesterday, but big deal - i was feeling so much better about myself already.

Speaking of weight... today i realized that if i wanted to get back to my old weight in college i need to lose a whopping 40 lbs. I used to weigh 125 lbs!!! Now how the hell did that happen?! Not the 125 lbs., but putting on 40 lbs. in less than 5 years... Man it really sneaked up on me. And to give you an idea of how f***-ed up my body image was, i had always thought i was Fat. And ugly, but maybe that's mostly because i thought i was fat. And now 40 lbs. later, I can honestly say that i think i'm pretty, despite the little bit of extra weight. I've sure come a long way in loving myself... :-)

Alright, over and out. Time to go to bed.