Ben just left after spending the weekend here... I'm still high from having him around. I don't know how to put this without sounding cheesy, but really when he's near everything's alright - even when he made me cry so hard. I've never felt so understood, never felt so unshakably loved. It's like nothing i say or do, nothing about my existence can scare him off. He's so lighthearted that when i go emotionally apeshit it doesn't do anything to him. He's so forgiving that even my darker side never left a mental scar on him. And he's so loving that he keeps me well grounded... Even after my emotional roller coaster rides (which, being me, happen way too often for the sake of a relationship) I always, always come back around sane, in love, and happy. And the sex just keeps getting more and more mind blowing as we get to understand each other's body better.
Today we jokingly started pairing his last name onto my name... Next year he's going to visit Indonesia... I'm not sure my dad would be too impressed with my choice of non-believer boyfriend so i can't really expect it to go all that well with the parents, but i do hope he finds the place habitable. I wouldn't know what to do with myself if this doesn't work out and he moves on with his life without me in it... Now that's a scary thought, i tell ya.
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